guessWHO’Sbizzack?

 

OMfucknG! i know its been soooo long since ive posted anything but shit has gotten extremely busy in my life. lets see.. Kaylen is in daycare & attempting this potty training thing….AGAIN. work is going OK…still looking for sumn else. i could always use more $$. & i have a boyfriend. for real. crazy i know but it just happened. dont worry…were super cool. very close to sumn like best friends & we figured…hell…why not try this shit out. hes got a CRAZZZZZY ex girlfriend & i dont do drama but sumn about him. fuck that unstable bitch. anywho…what else? oh! well 2010 is almost over. ive been thinking about what the hell my resolution is gonna be. oh…PLUS…my blog will officially be 1 years old jan. 1st. yay! i appreciate the people that stop by & enjoy my foolishness. im not big time YET….but i will be sooner than later. quote me.

hmmmm. im skeptical about posting pictures of me & my boo cuz i have a crazy baby daddy & im cool on the drama ( but u already knew that ). lets see…hes 37 years old. 13 years older than me. technically my first older guy. its funny cuz he doesnt look his age at all . im pretty sure hes got pulled over for truancy or curfew once or twice. he has a mohawk for crying out loud…but its soooooo fuckn adorable!  he’s Filipino & Tongan (thats a type of pacific islander if youre not familiar). but he treats me like GOLD. its sooooo great. i love that we can just smoke sumn & really just have a conversation like best friends. he makes me feel soo frickn good. dont quote me on this but he has the extreme potential to be the ONE. Kaylen loves him. They get along so well. thats all i can really hope for. if Kaylen likes it..i LOVE it. aight enough about that.. lol

soooo im gonna get back on my shit & regularly post shit. love u guys. appreciate it that you rock with me…cuz i definitely rocks wit yall. :)

damnYALL

 

Clifford “TI” Harris & Tameka “Tiny” Cottle was arrested in LA county for possession of a controlled substance. no word on what it is. but the bail is 10,000.  see the booking info here.  (shoutout to Purple_Starship for gettin her hands on this. follow her on twitter.) They’ve charged them with a felony. Pray for ‘em…whatever the actual situation is. seems like trouble follows these two.

RIPguru

 

Guru, the pioneering hip-hop legend who united jazz and hip-hop as a solo artist and half of the influential duo Gang Starr, has died. He was 43.

Guru, whose real name was Keith Elam, died Monday after a battle with cancer, his producer, Solar, told MTV. Guru was hospitalized late February after suffering cardiac arrest and was briefly in a coma.

During his final days, Guru penned a farewell letter to his fans to be released upon his death, Solar said.

"I, Guru, am writing this letter to my fans, friends and loved ones around the world. I have had a long battle with cancer and have succumbed to the disease," the letter read. "I have suffered with this illness for over a year. I have exhausted all medical options. I have a non-profit organization called Each One Counts dedicated to carrying on my charitable work on behalf of abused and disadvantaged children from around the world and also to educate and research a cure for this terrible disease that took my life. I write this with tears in my eyes, not of sorrow but of joy for what a wonderful life I have enjoyed and how many great people I have had the pleasure of meeting." (Read the whole letter here.)

(via PlatinumPlusENT)

 

yet another pioneer in the black community has passed. 2010 is real fuckd up so far. SMH. you will be missed.

&toallmyREALBITCHES…

 

you know who you are. the chicks that always keep it real & never on no silly bitch shit.  if no one else appreciates you…know that i do. we are a rare breed & occasionally overlooked. this 1’s 4 u.

 

(via WORDFUCK)

sillyBITCHES…

 

remember when these creatures were far & in between? it seems like no matter what i do or where i go…theyre around! lets start on my favorite social site TWITTER. you have no idea how fucking SICK i am of bitches doing wayyyy too much & then getting mad at the niggas that put them right on front street.

i ran across @MsMemphisBooty (im not linking her tho. fuck that bitch) today and literally laughed out loud. her main pic is her…completely naked. her background is tiled with a similar image. i dont knock anyone about how they get folowers…i mean some people just dont have the conversational skills some of us do. the part that KILLED me tho? was that her bio said something on the lines of “married. not dealing with any B.S.”. bitch HUH? youre…NAKED. if u dont think that youre gonna come across some type of crazy shit your kidding yourself. and your MARRIED. i dont know about you guys…but if my wife was naked on a social site of any kind besides MY CELLPHONE i’d choke her out & then drown her. WTF kinda shit is that?! what kind of respect do you have for yourself  let alone the man who gave you HIS last name. this is why the institution of marriage is almost like a joke nowadays….

 

…& then there is @KatStacks. oh cant forget about this loose ass bitch. so she decides to start a blog telling, sometimes in detail, about all the celebrities (none A-listers..to me at least) she’s sucked & fucked on. umm first off the first time i even ran across her twitter page…she was wearing an ankle bracelet. like the electronic ones a, oh i dont know, parole officer would lace you with… RIGHT. anyway, secondly i dont believe this bitch. first off she looks kinda slow & from a pic i saw of her va-jay jay…it kinda looks like she used to be a dude. check her pics on this blog. like i get what shes tryna do…become a low budget Karrine Stephens but come on. the caliber of niggas Kat is ALLEGEDLY fuckin wit aint gon do shit but leave her with an STD. i dont condone being a ho in any way, shape or form but come on son.

& the last silly bitch i will comment on tonight is one of my BFF’s friends. how is it that you can be uber tight with someone & you dont tell her that the dude shes been fucking…has been trying to fuck you? how does that slip your mind? i dont get it. the first time a nigga one of MY friends was involved with came at me on some other shit…im setting this nigga up. imma do some shit like call her on my phone and leave it in my purse so she can hear that shit. maybe i watch too much Cheaters but i dont play that game. what do you think he’d say about you? not anything good…trust me. shit, if he had the chance he’d prolly throw you under the bus & say it was all you. dont let dick cloud your judgment people. its such a SILLY BITCH move.

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clearingmyMIND.

 

so help me understand how it is that people can like you so much yet act so indifferent sometimes? its crazy because i vowed to not bother wit any niggas after the still ongoing breakup (dont ask..lmao) with the father of my child. so he slips through the cracks only to disappoint like alll the others? this dating game is a real russian roulette kinda situation. as liberated i feel about being single this shit is for the BIRDS! i dont see how you guys do it! but i guess this is the only way to truly find that person that is for you.

what constitutes a good intro to an actual relationship? i ask this because i thought i had it figured out. the chemistry, the lack of those awkward silences, the similar interests? what happens when all thats there…but its still not right? or maybe one of the parties in question is totally down for the ‘lets see what happens’ idea & the other one is as well but …falsely? dont you think they owe it to that person to keep it real? to identify the hang-ups & figure it all out before one or both people are too far gone. (that was a drake reference for @Purple_Starship. i know shes gonna read this!LOL).

i think a lot of these issues come from past relationships. either we’re both still stuck on that ex or we constantly find ourselves comparing our next…to our ex. either way its a super bad situation. in either case its probably not the best idea to pursue that relationship..let alone any for that matter. you cannot fully give your ♥ to someone when you left a piece of it with the last love. regardless of how much you BELIEVE that youre over that person maybe your ♥ hasnt completely gotten over them. and if i dont know anything else i do know that your heart & your mind RARELY agree with each other. when they do tho… hold on to that person at all costs!!

this entry was more of an ‘excuse me while i get some things off my chest’ type of entry but if it helped or you partially agreed with ANYTHING ive said then its served a double purpose.

 

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bl0gging4C0OLpoints?!

 

first off let me start off by saying that I am allll about the freedom of speech. ive never been the type to silence people’s thoughts or ideas. but there is something affecting the blog community that needs to be addressed.

blogging has becoming increasingly a ‘hip & cool’ concept which means that everyday some jerk  wearing skinny jeans & a vintage shirt (that he has no memory of) who has a random thought in their mind can start a blog. they dont necessarily care about making something actually interesting & possibly informative. theyre more concerned with shock value i suppose. but an entry on loose vagina lips?! youve gotta be kidding!!!  how do u have a blog filled with entries like that!? first off who the fuck cares & secondly i dont wanna read that shit. WTF. i admit that i have random postings but id like to think that even if they dont apply to u, theyre interesting or funny. not ridiculous.

to me, those types of  blogs make the good ones feel…cheapened. if thats what people want to read then God bless the blogs that still have substance & the people who genuinely work hard on theirs.

fuck all u bloggers that blog cuz u think its cool & not because your purpose is to make people laugh & possibly have them thinking about the world around them hours after reading. blogging doesnt make u cool. being cool helps make u a great blogger. a great blogger has style, humor & a different outlook on life. things like that are in your blood. & trust me its NOT in yours.

 

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&iKNOW…

 

..ive been skimping on the actual, written blog entries but my life is on retard mode. im attempting to get over a relationship that has truly changed my life…some good, some bad. either way once i get this clusterfuckness in some type of order i GOT U! i wouldnt be me if i didnt. & on that note im sleep. zzZzzZz

 

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whathappensWHEN….

 

a friend of mine brought this up & i thought it was worth blogging about. here’s the rundown:

she’s in a relationship that shes completely committed to…BUT [& there is ALWAYS a but] she’s recently met some1 who is amazing. they talk as much as she’s able  to & they get along great. he knows she is in a serious realtionship & knows & RESPECTS his boundaries.

WHEN THIS HAPPENS…WHAT DO U DO?

this is a very sticky situation but it basically comes down to these few factors.

• is this NEW guy really as great as u think? think about it. u just met him. youve known your boyfriend way longer-sometimes seniority wins.
• are u willing to throw away everything u and your boyfriend have built for this new person?
• is that new person on the same level [or above] that your boyfriend is on emotionally, physically & everything in between [does he have his life together?]
• can this new person “replace” all the feelings and emotions u have invested into your boyfriend?

of course i could go on & on but u get the point. weighing out all the pros & cons between the two will give u your answer. solid evidence always outweighs the heart in significance. who knows? maybe that new guy is the one. but then again maybe thats just that initial giddy feeling & lust thats clouding your judgement.

hope i helped.

*got a ?—i prolly got an answer for it. just be ready to hear the truth.*

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stopFRONTIN…

 

this entry is about to be one of my rants but i NEED to get this off my chest. i am soooo tired of wannabe ass bitches & niggas!!! when did it become UNCOOL for u to be yourself & keep shit real?!

if you aint got shit….STOP actin like u do

if u dont do shit…..STOP actin like u do

if YOU aint shit….STOP actin like u are!

i have NEVER EVER fronted on shit and its some people out in this world that dont know to be themselves.

niggas talkn about how much fly gear they got & i always see u in the same shoes. fuck it. its hard out here but dont try to up yourself so someone else will like u. only 1 who gotta like u is YOU. remember that.

niggas talk about how much weed they smoke & how good they smoke & i know for a fact they JUST started smoking. plus u dont know the difference between stress & chronic so i know u wouldnt know a bomb sack if it slapped u in the face. wtf is that shit about?! i had no idea that as adult we’re still under peer pressure! i smoke but no one pressured me to. stop acting like u snoop dogg nigga.

bitches talkn bout how many niggas they pull but dont NEVER be in a relationship. either u lyin or u a ho. either way own that shit.

bitches talkn about how they run shit & they independent but ya baby daddy have ya car all day, he take ya whole paycheck, pick u up late from work &  cuss u out when he DO get there…bitch u aint running shit. 

STOP FRONTING ON YOURSELF. ITS NOT A GOOD LOOK. IF SHIT AINT THE WAY U WANT IT…DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT…DONT JUST COVER IT UP WITH A LIE.

…i could go on forever but ill save the rest for another rant. another time.

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rememberHER?

 

she’s Maia Campbell. used to be on LL Cool J’s show “In The House”. supposedly she’s a crack & meth head. i’ll let u determine whats what for yourself.  its a shame what fame can do to some people after all the glitz & glamour has died down..

 

myBFFmaryjane

 

remember those D.A.R.E. classes? ill be the first to say that i was hardcore on that shit. i used to wear my muh-fuckn D.A.R.E. shirt on the weekends. thats how crucial it was.

“& i'd die for that shit too.”- Day Day (Friday After Next)

the point is that im writing this post with a blunt in my hand. wtf happened?! ill fuckn tell u what happened: the D.A.R.E. teacher couldnt have been talkn about weed.  i mean think about it. all the drugs he was talkn about did crazy shit like make u lose your rent $$ or make you steal out your momma’s purse. now i dunno what anyone else thinks but weed has NEVER, EVER made me do either one of those things.  if i dont have it..i dont have it.

oh jeez! then ALCOHOL?! yea right! niggas be running over people & running off clifs & shit. Weed only makes me get home safer so i can enjoy whatever munchies im bout to smash on.

weed is natural. yea. i said that shit. it is. when i roll a bliggity (thats a blunt . inside joke that i know more than 1 person would get) i dont have to add shit to it but an EMPTY cigar shell & saliva. Now i dont know the exact Betty Crocker recipe for crack but i DO know it aint easier than that. Jeezy said something about some baking soda. im not baking nigga…WTF i need that shit for?!

crack.meth.pills (although i do enjoy a loritab or xanax every now & then). coke? none of that shit is the business!  im sorry to break it to you people but THATS what  Officer Friendly was yapping about.

have a blunt instead! u not high after the first one? fuck it. roll another. u cant overdose. trust me. (??).  there will never be a day where this high aint enough for me. this is NOT a gateway drug. believe me.

 

get ya mind right.

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whatREALITY?

 

is it just me or have reality shows reallly gone down the toilet? & by NO means does that mean that i dont watch that shit. of course i do damn it! who wouldnt? if someone manages to get on TV & make an ass of themselves..count me the fuck in. but seriously..

remember when all the reality TV we had was… THE REAL WORLD? its funny cuz that show is probably the least watched now that the airwaves have been flooded with dating shows.

everybody’s lookn for love! since when have you ever found your soulmate in a group of herpes type 2 infested bitches? RIGHT. that shit would NEVER happen. No matter who the “star” is of the show..no one ever ends up in an actual relationship. Hell, by the time most of the reunion shows air..theyve already calld it quits. remember when THE BACHELOR came out & we all truly believed they were falln in love?

oh & dont fuckn get me started about the fact that more than half of these girls that try out for the shows have done or participated in 1 or more of the follow acts/occupations:

1. dancing..& not the classical or hiphop kind
2. posed nude
3. porn
4. modeling

..so where does that leave the “real” girls? out of sight & mind i suppose. i guess i just dont get whats so “real” in reality shows.

AND THEN ON TOP OFF ALL THAT….the SHIT these bitches say blows my fucking mind! here’s a great example. i was watching that new show with FRANK the ENTERTAINER [from I Love NY & I Love $$]. there was this 1 chick that he was grilln becuz she didnt know anything about him [*see above 1-4 for explanation]. but anyway she does her little recap thingy & she says,

“that was the MOST embarrasing ive EVER experienced.”

bitch huh? thats not even english…i dont think. take me back to the days when there were really good scripted shows [not like THE HILLS] for people our age.  *daydreams*…but  this is what they have subjected us to.

pray 4us.

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flyerTHANtheRESTofTHEM

so somewhere around 1pm today my boyfriend/baby daddy came by to spend some time with us. now usually he just will come over in some lounging clothes. its not a big deal becuz we used to live together & we have been together long enough that we dont need to dress to impress each other yanno? anyway THIS nigga comes over her with some fresh nikes, fresh fitted & a nice crisp new shirt--all coordinating. now when were going out he always dresses nice but this was random. i couldnt help but laugh like
'look at mr. fly guy.'
i guess i laughd becuz it threw me off. anyway he comes in like
'wheres the baby?' & i go 'he's sleep'.
so we go to smoke a blunt or two and he goes 'oh im gonna kick it with my cousin tonight thats why im dressed like this...i know u wanted to ask.'
damn right. anyway, fast forward to like an hour ago and im like
'sooo when u leavin?' then he get all offended & shit like 'ohh u kickn me out now? oh i see how it is.'
he's so funny cuz he came over here like he had other shit to do but he spends 20 minutes tryna con me to let him stay. waaamp. i love him but were tryn to work some issues out & us sharing a bed again aint gon get nothing accomplishd. right now im in the state of mind like ill do ANYTHING for him but we cant fall asleep together. lol. were working on it.

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